about cosplay

well, I have been thinking lately..
I think I will participate on the cosplay competition this year..
dunno when but definitely I will attend..
what cosplay I wanna be? well, somehow I decided to choose one of the characters that were in the Kingdom Hearts..the question is who?
If I choose Sora, somehow it's very complicated, with the spiky hair and the outfit..

then again, I would prefer choose Roxas..
I can do the hairstyle, it's not very difficult but the outfit seems complicated to me..haha~
also, Jay told me that there are so many cosplayers became Roxas and Sora already..

 so, right now I decide to choose Ventus from the new Kingdom Hearts game which is Birth by Sleep..
I would have to choose either the armor suit or the normal outfit..

well, guess I have to start working it out before the cosplay competition start ya..I don't care whether I will win or not..just gonna enjoy it, that's all..haha~

happy?

well, last weekend, I'm not at Selayang about three days..I stayed at Sg. Besi for a while bcuz got my brother's wedding ceremony was held at there..in that three days, I went to see my lol friends there..it was really exciting to see them again..well, only two that attend to my bro's wedding ceremony..wan and barber..thanks for coming..actually, I wanna invite my friends at Selayang, but the place it's kinda far so I didn't invite them..so damn sorry ya~ anyway, it's good to have a sister-in-law..now, my family becomes more bigger and bigger..haha..well, that's all..bai bai~ ^^

a lol movie at Jusco Kepong?

waa~ kon'nichiwa minna-san~!!it's been a long time I didn't online and post something on my blog de..haha~
well, I'm just pretty busy lately, no time to post anything..
but now here I am, posting a something new, I guess..
anyway, last  two weekends, I think it's on 9th January - Saturday..
it's supposed to be a gathering for 5ak2, but most of them can't go..busy with their work..
and it turns out to be only 3 guys going... =.=" ..really what the fuck?!
it's just me, Hamid and Arif..Wei Hwa want to go but she's the only Chinese who is free, so she didn't go..
as for Jasmine, she don't have a transport to go..lol~
well, only three of us went to Jusco Kepong to watch a movie..
a very damn lol movie which is..
Ju-On (2009): Black Ghost and White Ghost..

somehow, the movie is a bit disappointing me..this movie don't have a scary part anymore..only got shocked moment but the rest were all funny..can u imagine a white old lady ghost holding a basketball? totally hilarious..haha~ but there's a few connection with the previous Ju-On's movies..also, there's too many characters in this movie but overall, I think this movie was ok lah..

nothing much..

urgh~~!!
damn boring this few days..
nothing much to do..
some of my friends work, few of them go to school..
I just sit at home for a while, injured bcuz accident recently..
my back bone really damn hurt, but now it's ok, I guess..
well, nothing unusual this past few days..
in the morning, I always have to take care of my niece, she still a baby..
cry, cry, and cry, what more can she do? sometimes it makes me headache..
but most of the time, she's ok..just quiet..well, her name is Nur Irdina Zahra binti Adri Ezani...
really a cute name..she's also beautiful..wonder how she will look like when she's grown up..haha~
well, if this saturday I got a time to hang out, maybe I will be going to our small gathering..
just involving the ex-akaun2 only..going out to watch a movie, maybe Carriers, I love to watch horror/scary movie..haha..
uh~ I think that's all for now, nothing much I gonna say..if got I will post another one later...
well, have a nice day minna-san, bai bai~ ^^

planning~?

humph~ I just started to think where should I study after this...
maybe I decided to study at UiTM...maybe at UniKL, humph...I dunno~~
because I wanna continue my study in Japan...learn about their technology about their Computer Graphic, just like Final Fantasy...
but before that, I keep searching in the internet, which place that have a Japanese course in Malaysia...
it's really damn hard to find it in this country...
if anyone got, PLEASE inform me ya~~

new year, new life and new sister-in-law?

hahaha~ just as the title say..before that, happy new year to all people..happy 2010..haha~
wow, new life has begins..now, can wake up late, no need to wear school uniform anymore..haha..lol~
on friday, I went to my previous house at sungai besi, stay there for a while, really damn boring la..
got no tv and radio...just got stupid books and air-cond...
after pray at masjid kem tentera, we went to masjid UPM, my bro married there..
then, I follow to my cousin's house..stay there for a night...
we went swimming..then, went to eat at mamak stall..
record a video that my cousin sing a song while playing guitar, the song was....uh, I forgot~ haha..
then, help him create a blog...he such a noobie..hahahaha~
well, this afternoon have to go to my bro's wedding ceremony...
-sigh- really tired this two days..on sunday, I got motor workshop...
what a terrible weekend...well, that's all for now...gonna sleep now...
good night / oyasumi nasai everyone~~ ^^

Happy New Year~~!!!!!!

Happy New Year~ at last, end as a "middle-high school" student..after this, can wake up late if not work..no need to wear school uniform anymore...haha~ excited! but feel sad that I can't see all my friends anymore..hard to talk them now after end of school..if wanna meet, they were busy with their work..-sigh- starting a new day tomorrow, got a lot of things to plan...moreover, tomorrow have to go to UPM, got a engagement ceremony..my bro and my sister-in-law, as I recalled, her name is Jasmine...then, sunday got bengkel motor...well, license L I already got, now it's time to get license P...I'm sure it will be easy...haha~ I break the record duh~ passing the computer test without reading the book and doing exercises...haha~ great!
well, that's all for tonight...I wanna go out, wanna enjoy with my friends, celebrating the last day for 2009...
Happy New Year for all the people that I know, wish you all in a pink of health and success in all the achievement you all doing ya~ hehe...end of 2009, begin the 2010...forget what happen in the past, throw away the bad things - the good things keep it as memories..concentrate on what you have in the present, and give it as best as you could..so that it will be easy for you in the future..well, good night / oyasumi nasai minna-san~~ ^^

Last weekend of 2009

too busy this week..got many things to do..
last saturday just pass the computer test...
got 46/50, it's a 2nd try...the 1st try got 41/50...DAMN! just one more mark...lol~
anyway, just now I went to hospital...got appointment with doctor...
need to check up several things and health of course...
the more we grown up, the more we have to take care of our health ya...
actually, today got gathering with 5akaun2 but because of I got an appointment, have to delay it...
I apologized to them that have to delay the gathering..
I decided to delay on saturday but I didn't realized that I have things to do on that day...
I have to attend to my brother wedding ceremony at Taman Sri Serdang...
so sorry again~ have to delay it next saturday or sunday..
well, I already pass and got L..need to get P..
then, I go find a job in KL...WHY? need to "away" from here for a while...
get "away" from here...don't care what will people talk bad about me...
I dunno whether I can get a job or not...I've got experience before so no need to worry about it, I guess...
maybe after this, I will going to UiTM..but before that, have to go to NS (Nasty Sh*t)..haha~ nice word there...lol~~ ^^
hmph....what else? girls? nah~ no need and there's no point to think about it...
to like them is an easy things to do, but to love? oh, shit~ NO WAY~!
so, no point think about girls if not fall in love on them ya...
what's in my head now is just enjoying what I have now and get prepare on what lies beyond ahead...
just push away the "girls" and "love" stuff far far away~
tomorrow will be the last day of 2009, might as well celebrating it...
on friday will be a New Year, also a New Life, no school anymore, and that is what I miss so much~
well, maybe that is all I wanted to say...maybe there's more, but can't figure it out...
so, for this last weekend, wish all Happy New Year...may god bless all of u...

5 akaun 2 t-shirt~

at last, t-shirt class already done...
that uncle really damn slow la~ hahaha~
altho got some mistakes on that shirt, but it's alright...
it looks great than what I expected, I guess~
never thought that uncle can really copy 100% of my design~
hahaha~ thank u~ and for those 5akaun2, wait ya~
I will give it to u, dont worry~

hahaha~ look cool huh?

lol~ my feet are there~~ hahaha~

got bit error there: *5AKAUN2*, look like SAKAUN2..hahaha~ but never mind~~

FLOW - Sign

when I hear this song, it was really great...

this song is the 6th opening for the Naruto Shippuden...
never though FLOW sing again for Naruto...this time is the 3rd time~
the first song was GO!, as the 4th opening of Naruto..
then, the second song was Remember, the 8th opening of Naruto..
now, the new song - Sign as the 6th opening of Naruto Shippuden..
here's the video:

FLOW - Sign (opening version)

Flow - Sign (music video)

Romaji and English Lyrics:
I realize the screaming pain
Hearing loud in my brain
But I'm going straight ahead, with the scar

Can you hear me?
Can you hear me?
Can you hear me? (So am I)

wasurete shimaeba ii yo,
kanji na kunacchaeba ii

surimuita kokoro ni futa wo shitanda

It's fine if you forget,
it's fine if you can't feel it
I've patched up the scrapes in my heart

kizutsuitatte heiki da yo, mou itami wa nai kara ne
sono ashi wo hikizuri nagara mo
It's okay if I'm hurt, because I no longer feel the pain
Even as I drag my feet along

miushinatta
jibun jishin ga
oto wo tatete
kuzureteitta
I can no longer see
The self
That made a sound
and then collapsed

kizukeba kaze no oto dake ga...
If you just notice the sound of the wind...

tsutae ni kita yo, kizuato tadotte
sekai ni oshitsubusarete shimau mae ni
oboeteru kana namida no sora wo
ano itami ga kimi no koto wo mamotte kureta
sono itami ga itsumo kimi wo mamotterunda
It told me to follow these scars
Before I'd be crushed by the weight of the world
Can you remember it? The sky of tears...
That pain has given you protection
Because this pain will always protect you

Can you hear me? (So am I)

kizutsukanai tsuyosa yori mo, kizutsukenai yasashisa wo
sono koe wa dokoka kanashisou de
More than the strength of being unhurt, the kindness that cannot hurt
Its voice in some ways, seems sad

kake chigaeta
BOTAN mitai ni
kokoro karada
hanareteita
Just like
Unbuttoning a button
Our hearts and bodies
Were separated

mou ichido kokoro wo tsukande...
Once again, catch your heart...

tsutae ni kita yo, kizuato tadotte
sekai ni oshitsubusarete shimau mae ni
oboeteru kana namida no sora wo
ano itami ga kimi no koto wo mamotte kureta
sono itami ga itsumo kimi wo mamotterunda
It told me to follow these scars
Before I'd be crushed by the weight of the world
Can you remember it? The sky of tears...
That pain has given you protection
Because this pain will always protect you

Can you hear me?
Can you hear me?
Can you hear me? (So am I)

mitsuke kita
ano nakigoe wa
machigainaku sou
jibun no datta
I found it
That teary voice
There's no mistake
It's my own

subete wa, kono toki no tame ni...
All of it was for this moment...

kitto hajime kara wakkatetanda
mou nidoto jibun dake wa hanasanai de...
kizuite kureta, kimi e no aizu
ano itami ga kimi no koto wo mamotte kureta
I'm sure that from the beginning, you knew
I was the only one who wouldn't leave you again
I made you realize, this is a sign for you
That pain has given you protection

tsutae ni kita yo, kizuato tadotte
sore nara mou osoreru mono wa naindatto...
wasurenai de ne egao no wake wo
I was told to follow these scars
And then there wouldn't be anything to be afraid of...
Don't forget it, your reason for smiling...

ano itami ga kimi no koto wo mamotte kureta
ano itami ga kimi no koto wo mamotte kureta
sono itami ga itsumo kimi wo mamotterunda..
That pain has given you protection
That pain has given you protection
Because this pain will always protect you..

Can you hear me?
Can you hear me?
Can you hear me? (So am I)

..................................

erm~ recently I just can't stop feel the pain in me...
damn, it's really hurt..
before sleep, always feel and hear the heartbeat even without touching the artery...
can it become more worse than this sooner?
I hate to tell to my parents, just don't want them to be so concerned about me...
it's my life, so just let me deal with my own problems..
even if I die, let me die alone...
hope this "sickness" and pain will end sooner...better end for good~!

soul mate?!

-sigh-
so damn boring for this past few weeks...
no school, no money...
friends busy with their own life...
got nothing to do and nowhere to go...
just sit at home, watching tv, playing v'games, going out playing skate...
that's all I've been doing~~
well, I have been thinking to search for a soul mate...
a very suitable person for me, but I dunno where to find...
to wait for it, so damn long for that "someone" to come...
but to search for it, still didn't found a suitable one...
maybe it's not my time yet and maybe I don't deserve to have a soul mate...
well, I just can like a/few girl but unfortunately can't love them...
hard to explain why bcuz that is who I am...
I really don't care if someone like/hate/love me or not...
it's just that I glad if someone just telling me the truth or just being honest is enough, not tell lies...
it's true that there aren't any humans who never told a lie,
people can't be perfect, everyone lies...
even so, I won't tell lies that will hurt those people that I care/love...

"New Life" has begun~

-sigh-
I felt really sad when I clean up my room..
throw away all childish things and school things..
I have to throw away my Gundam Wing X figura, but I keep my Gundam Virtue..hahaha~
then, suddenly I saw my 4 Akaun 2 picture lying on the ground..
when I think about it, there's a lot of sweet memories between me and my classmates..
I wish I can to turn back time, but sadly I can't..life must go on~~
when I'm study at school, I really wanted to end school fast..
but when I already finish school, I feel like I wanna go to school back and meet my friends..
now, we all going to our own separate ways..
this "New Life", I have to concentrate with working, make some money for myself, going to college or university, searching a suitable person, and last but not least, having own family..
that is what adulthood life, that's the life that await all of us (if I still alive)..
No matter what happens, hope that we all will still keep in touch..
And if got free time, maybe we all can hang out together again..
Now, I have to carry my own responsibility, and it become more heavier than before..
For all of my friends, wish u good luck in your own "New Life"..
no matter what, we still friends until the end..
well, that's all for today..got some work to do..
thanks for those who read this post, may god bless all of u..
thanks again, and good night~~

Everything will remain as sweet memories~ <33

Wah~ today got jamuan for my class - 5 akaun 2..

it was really excited, and sad~~ huhuhu~~~~ T.T

got KFC and a lots of junk food..

Miss Raudhah said something to us before we start eating~

Saz baca doa before start eating~


Then, itadakimasu~~ ^^

First, girls took a picture:

Then, it's boys turn:

Together - boys and girls:

We had so much fun..sadly, there's no games cuz not enough time..
But this jamuan will always in our mind..
All the event today, I will keep it as a sweet memories that I will never forget..
It's hard to say for my feelings about this through words..
It is all based on my reaction.. <33
Last, but not least......I have to say goodbye to my school~~
"Sayonara, school~~!!!"

Dean Winchester

Dean Winchester by Jensen Ackles from Supernatural..
He is so damn funny with this character..
Sometimes, when he act sad, the story really sad..
when he serious, he very damn serious..
but when he make a joke, it's really hard to stop laughing..

This is the end of the episode of Supernatural: Season 4, Episode 6 - Yellow Fever.
Jensen Ackles a.k.a. Dean Winchester sing "Eye of the Tiger"

Freedom~~

At last, freedom has come~~~ I finish my exam already..
hahaha~ how excited I am right now..
So, just have to wait for the results on March 2010..
tomorrow got jamuan only for 5 akaun 2 on school at 12 o'clock~~
that means, that I officially end as student in SMK Ideal Heights.
The "New Life" waits me ahead, so I have to be ready to face it sooner.
Miss my own life in school, got so damn many friends..
Hope we will meet again someday, somewhere and somehow..
sayōnara school~! welcome "New Life"~!

the decision~~

-sigh-

"maybe" i will be going to jamuan this thursday..

just "maybe", still not sure whether really going or not~~

well, tomorrow will be the last paper, Perdagangan..

after that, officially I will end my life as a student..

sad or happy, I dont really know which one, only god know..

I end myself as student and will start my new life,

the after school life; which is work to get money, find the exact soul mate, build a family and all stuff that related to that..

each moment has it own meaning..sad, happy, love, fear etc.

why I saying all this?! I'm not going to die anyway.........yet~ hahahaha~~ lol~~

how to express my feelings huh?

well, for all my friends that I knew:
most of them were from my primary school, until now still friends..
new friends, my friends from KL (Sungai Besi); u all the best..

cant figure how will be my life without all of u..

U all have been a great friend to me, all of u are my friends as well as all of u are my best friends..I treat all the same..

lol~~ I been crap so long~~ hahaha~~

really different than what the title are...

anyway, arigatou gozaimasu to all of u...

Hearts~

Thinking of you, wherever you are..


We pray for our sorrows end,

and hope that our hearts will blend.

Now I will step forward to realize this wish.

And who knows,

Starting a new journey may not be so hard

or maybe it has already begun.

There are many worlds,

but they share the same sky

one sky, one destiny.

planning day~

hmm, i just wondered myself whether i really wanna go to 5akaun2's jamuan or not..

i'm sure they can enjoy the jamuan without me..

didnt get to see them for the last time also never mind..

i'm sure sooner or later they will forget me also~

in fact, i got several reasons that i dont wanna go to jamuan..

maybe Jasmine Lee knows, cuz i told her before..

moreover, got "some or few or one" people that i dont want to see..

that "maybe" one of the reason that i dont want to go..

i feel very confused right now~ whether i should go or i should not..

if i didnt go, i hope Fadly can handle the jamuan himself..

-sigh-

still got 2 or 3 days before jamuan start..

so in this limit of days, i will think about it carefully..

one wrong move, and i will regret forever..

The best of 5 akaun 2

nice & steady..like this pic very much..

this pic, everyone seems not ready yet..lol

5 akaun 2, what more can i say..
the best class that i have in my "school" life..
how excited i am been friends with all of them..